Nothing Going Right

McDonald's decided to hire me. (oh joy). But they wouldn't let me work behind the counter because I wasn't "qualified" so all I was allowed to do was vacuum the children's play area and put straws in the little straw holder. (woot) So I'm being cranky cause this is the only place that would hire me and this is all they will let me do.

Then this extremely large woman comes up to me and says she is supposed to marry me in 2 days. For some reason I believe her and she takes me back to her apartment where she turns into an extremely large man and we end up doing it (awkwardly i might add) outside on the patio of the apartment building. Just then I realize I am not supposed to marry this large man/woman- and that by doing this I am cheating. I start to panic. The large man goes inside and leave me outside, naked. Lucas walks up the stairs and I tell him what happened and that I had no idea what was going on. He tells me to jump over the steps and hide while he takes care of Large Man.

I begin to run, and I end up in this cartoon world where everything is extremely brightly colored. Everything is sort of split into two- faces have 3 eyes, and almost two mouths. Animals and plants all look distorted as well.

Wake 1.

I have a chiropractic appointment in the U-Village. I walk into the office/book store and up to the counter- though I had to randomly pick a counter because there were about 12 of them and some were selling books. I told the man I had an appointment with Douglass. The counter man tells me I need a last name, which I do not have. He also tells me that I don't even have an appointment and asks me to leave before causing a scene.

I leave, and am very confused. Also I am now only wearing a towel around my body. The UVill has moving people walkways but they are so narrow that you have to stand single file and they were moving so slowly that you could crawl about 5 times faster. And yet people were still using them. Inching themselves along without having to move a muscle.

Then my legs start going out. I cant stand up. I grasp for railings, for people for anything to pull myself back up to standing. But the weight of my legs is too great, and my arms too weak to pull myself up.

Wake 2.

I have a pet parrot. I hate this parrot. Its obnoxious, it wont stop biting me and always tries to fly away. Soon the parrot transforms into my friend Tina and she tells me she needs to fly to the French area of Canada. Unsure why, but knowing that she must fly- I decide to help her get ready. She insists on bringing gigantic purses and makeup on her journey, and I try to convince her that once she is a parrot again, she wont be able to carry all that weight. Finally we get her set up with a small pack and some plastic tarp in case it rains.

She attempts to transform back into a parrot, but something is wrong. She's stuck. Shes lost her gift and she wont be able to fly.

Wake 3.

Anger

My mother was getting married. And for some reason this upset me greatly. I yelled at her for everything. I yelled at her for marrying this man, for raising me, for my misplacing of my mascara. Everything I could think of I yelled at her. Eventually it was time to go to the ceremony, and go I went grudgingly. It was on the way that i remembered I had to get her a wedding gift, so I stopped at a little shop on the side of the street.

The shop was filled with things made of sea animals and other things from the ocean. Model ships made from sharks jaws and seaweed, Sails and flags made from piranha skin. Ornamental things made from the shells of some sea critters. I (obviously) couldn't decide on anything, so I continued on to the ceremony.

The wedding was huge, there were masses of people. I sat in a pew in the middle and felt such anger and sadness towards my mother. But I couldn't cry. I wanted to. I wanted to let the tears flood from my eyes for the next 12 years. But as sad and angry as I was, I couldn't cry. And this frustrated me more.

Wake 1.

Im back in my house in Silverdale, my grandmother sitting at the kitchen table. Were alone in the house. The phone rings and I run up to answer it. There is a man on the other line who tells me my mom is in danger and that there are 30 bombs set up to explode wherever she goes. He starts listing off coordinates- latitudes and longitudes. I scramble as fast as I can to write them down, but he is speaking so fast. He hangs up. I begin yelling at my grandmother to get help. To grab a map and help me figure out where these locations are and to help find my mother. I'm so scared. Were not going to make it. It's too late. And I still can't cry.

Wake 2.

By this point, my mind is so confused about whats going on. Am I dreaming, am I awake? Why am I so angry? Jon is here. Im yelling at him too. Im furious with him. I have no idea why. I want to throw stuff at him. To run away. To cry again. But all I can do is yell. The whole night im yelling. The whole night im angry and frustrated and sad and distraught, and all I want to do is start crying and let go of all of these feelings. But I cant. All I can do is yell.

Wake 3.